Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Fighting ennui while lying in a puddle of doldrums

After being laid low by a bout of something vicious and pernicious, I'm still trying to regain some mental and physical energy. How many naps does it take to recover some purpose in life? I'm feeling like my brain is full of cotton and my body is collapsing into oatmeal.

This is not good.

So here are some good things:

I'm retired, so I don't have to worry about losing my job.
My income is enough that I can send a little money to the food shelf and I don't have to worry about using them any time soon (although I did several times in the past).
I have good neighbors.
I have good friends.
I have great kids and grandkids.
I will get over the blahs eventually.
And, then I can help other people.

Gee, I feel a lot better now!


Bevie said...

We're now using the food shelf we once contributed to. Talk about casting one's bread upon the waters. It's also an object lesson in humility.

You have a lot to be happy about. I hope you feel better soon so you can feel happy.

MaxCity said...

There must be something in the air--I've had a virus, plus the ensuing blues and blahs lately. Makes it hard to get anything constructive done. But I keep plugging away.

I, too have experienced the food bank days--about twelve years ago. These days I am very lucky, as the bad economy hasn't affected us as much here in ND. I try to keep helping others in any way I am able, as I believe that is what we were put on this earth to do.

I don't buck my "inward" phases too much anymore. I believe that God understands and helps us use them to rebuild ourselves in new and better ways. Everything needs a dormant season. As a result, we are able to extend ourselves again later.

Ms Sparrow said...

Thanks for your friendly support, Bevie and Jo. It's easy to sink into despair when your inner resources are so depleted you can't remember what you started to do. But, the forced introspection is beneficial in making me resolve to work harder at making a difference.
One advantage you both have is your kids around to brighten your day. Enjoy!